in a flash; my vacation gone.
mood:
i still remembered the few weeks when we fretted about not having a job.
when we searched through the net & papers.
when we told each other what findings we had.
when we went for some of the interviews & recruit services together.
and then we went for outings on the way.
when we cursed about the Flyer not responding to us.
my parents couldn't wait to see me out of the house.
i was dying of boredom.
i was stressed about dying of boredom.
and after the Flyer hired me, everything went from cruise ship to speedbOat.
now here i am, as i type, my vacation is 95% gone.
LOL. what a big irony.
i wished i could go on more outings.
i didn't see my parents as often (in fact they complained about this now)
i stressed about not having the chance to die of boredom lOlx.
i sleep @ 1+ am and wake up @ noon.
sometimes i can't sleep much and still turn up for work..
i tested how far i could go and finally, it was shown on my face!
that's when i started to take things slowly...
then i realized it's already towards the end.
i have sort of 'fully utilized' my 3 mths vacation.
i am not complaining.
because i feel my vacation was well spent.
most of the time, it was fun.
work is fun.
i made friends that are really worth keeping (sometimes i wish i can just pack them and still be able to see them almost everyday when i start school).
i knew people that are worth knowing.
i opened up more to strangers.
and last but not the least: i found Ronald!
i get upset.
i get happy.
i get stressed.
i get excited.
i get pissed.
i get high.
i get tickled.
no life <--- some may say because during this vacation, my life revolves around work mainly. but this kind of no life is quite the kind of life that's enjoyable & fulfilling @ the same time.
things that made you mad and at some times made you happy are those that matter to you the most.
at least that's how i judge what i place close to my heart.
the same thing that made me the happiest and the angriest/ saddest is one that i treasure alot.
so i could say my work does make me feel like this.
perhaps that's why i find it to be fulfilling & am attached to it even till now.
if today is my last day, i dunno how else to feel.
but i never agreed upon it because i'll still want to fill up the schedule for the next few weeks to come.
i still wanna feel there's no end to this.
that i'll still be part of it & we'll keep going.
i'll still be attached to this & we'll still keep building our friendships.
now you ask me why won't i say 'quit'?
These are the reasons why.
"What will you call this?"
it's called love.
